welcome

WELCOME TO : my dreams, my thoughts, my wonders, my ambitions, my heart, my laughter, my style, my surroundings, my art , and my creativity.
WELCOME TO : a refreshing breathe of air after putting a strong mint in your mouth.

WELCOME TO : something like elation when you first open your eyes.

WELCOME TO : the art of conversation with the insane.
WELCOME TO : humming a broken tune all day long.

WELCOME TO : anything and everything.

WELCOME TO ASHLEY

Monday, January 30, 2012

....

my heart hurts..alot.

do me a favor and stop caring so much.

Being truly in love with someone takes courage, patience, and trust if you ask me. When you've had your heart broken once and you found love yet again you take chances. A person giving their heart away again most likely at first has their guard up. When the guard is broken you care about this person alot, sometimes you might even think a little too much, although it could never be too much. The little things become big things, because most of the time when the feeling is mutual between two people there is no "real" problems. Things like not texting me back right away, who does what the most, who you talk to, blah blah blah, start to become big issues when at first you cared nothing about. Only because you care for this person so much and your scared of getting your heart broken because the first time or maybe even times was hard, but you know this time around would be even harder, especially if your at that age where you know you could be with this person forever. You think to yourself if anything were to happen between me and this person .. thats it for the opposite sex and in some cases the same sex, youll play them out like all the others ones did you if anything were to happen between you and your love. You become very sensitive to your loved one, getting your feelings hurt easily. Your so attached to that person you want everything to be perfect.. but you loose sight that its not. You want that person to your self all the time, but you forget you have to let them breathe as you would want to breathe if your loved one was always with you. These feelings are scary. Sometimes caring way too much for a person can lead to arguing ... alot.. you dont want things to be this way but you cant control the feelings you feel. Arguing puts bumps in your relationship, when these bumps start to become often down the road you want to get rid of them, arguing hurts your feelings and changes alot on your relationship. You start to say I DONT CARE, when said to many times one starts to believe them and when this happens this becomes a problem. Your feelings change, you start to think negative thoughts that maybe you shouldnt be thinking. Your guard builds back up because you caring so much is starting to get you hurt, your so caught up in thinking about that feeling of getting your heart broken again the natural pushing the person away occurs again, being caught up in this feeling is actually breaking your heart. Instead of thinking about what could happen, you should just let them love you and take chances, but being human and knowing the feeling of taking a chance once before and the past taking advantage of you , it seems impossible to take another chance because of things that happen before. This my friend is called a cycle. End the cycle!

Thursday, January 19, 2012

To my spanish best friend.



esta canción es que describe a una chica con un aura que quiere un hombre rico, que los chicos están hablando de cómo conseguir el dinero, cómo se tiene dinero, ¿qué tienen todas las niñas. que están diciendo que se puede decir que es inteligente de su estilo, básicamente su presencia.




en la canción del rapero es jactarse de las cosas que él tiene con su dinero. "rack city"es un club de striptease. él dice que tiene amigas otros chicos en su polla. esta canción es básicamente jactancia.todo lo que da strippers son cientos



esta canción está diciendo que trabaja tan duro por su dinero, la gente está celosa se ​​ven por él, diciendo que la mierda es una locura. él dice que trabaja muy duro permite obtener altos. bola tan duro es una expresión de presionante



la canción habla de estar ahí para sus amigos, básicamente él es leal a sus amigos, significa estar conspirando para seguir recibiendo dinero



Drake es rap acerca de sus logros y su futuro. Rick Ross dice que se enamoró de la música, empieza a hablar acerca de sus pruebas para llegar a rapear, lo que tiene ahora.



la canción empieza hablando con una chica diciéndole que no es un cantar el canto de un tiempo para parar, entonces decir a las chicas son "amantes de la tripulación", lo que significa que todas las chicas lo aman y amigos Hios. Drake está diciendo todo lo que hizo fue la paciencia para estar donde estaba, él dice que la gente cree sus letras les ayuda. se habla de la gente le encanta su "swagg" swagg es su estilo y apariencia.



la canción comienza diciendo que te amo, pero no es cierto, él está teniendo sexo con una chica que le odia, sus amigos están ordenando las bebidas por su cuenta, las niñas están sonriendo a él porque saben que pueden obtener dinero de él. continuación, el coro empieza a decir que son de alta para ello. baically esta canción está diciendo que él no sabe que es real debido a su fama, él piensa que todo el mundo le gusta por su dinero.



diciendo que él vive la vida rápida, él no puede dejar de que es todo lo que sabe. dijo que se hizo rico muy rápido.



él dice que tiene lo que necesita, se enrolla la hierba, las niñas se encuentran en su pene. diciendo las niñas tienen que entregar, pero no dando a las niñas nada. dijeron que todo está en que cuenta, básicamente, que cada vez está con ellos todo es gratis. el dinero se los llama, ellos solo quieren dinero y el poder.



esta canción dice todo puede cambiar en un minuto de Nueva York, son lista de las cosas que han cambiado. , dice en la vida todo puede cambiar. en esta canción hablan de Tupac, Biggie, Jay Z, y lo que han hecho.


esta canción está diciendo que usted los encontrará en las nubes, porque son súper alta. están hablando de las malas hierbas.



esta canción diciendo que él está montando en torno a fumar en su coche, se está montando en su carro conseguir el dinero. le está diciendo a una chica que no gastar el dinero a continuación, pasar el tiempo. dijo que si lo que él tiene, él es el que gasta su propio dinero en ella, habla de su ropa, las niñas, las malas hierbas. las cosas típicas de los raperos rap.



esta canción en realidad sólo se repite uno mismo, es más famoso por el ritmo. pero él dice que quiere un biy que la falta de respeto, él sigue hablando de papel, que es el dinero que él dice que no tiene tanto dinero si quiere que las chicas que puedan tener. entonces le dice a un stipper para exprimir sus pezones, que es al azar. es decir a la gente a decir su nombre dos veces.









esta canción está diciendo que esta chica es su amuleto de la suerte. él no creía que pudiera encontrar a una chica como ella, tiene su espalda, su propio dinero, su propio coche y fuma su hierba propia. él dice que le envuelve en sus brazos, ella es hermosa, que quiere mantenerla a su lado. que realmente le gusta, tal vez un día se casará con ella.















Saturday, December 24, 2011

Monday, November 28, 2011

Not because you think its cool



Helps me forget what's really going for the time being.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

R.I.P

my red eyed albino guinea. hope guinea pig heaven treats well my friend. you were beautiful and unique.. im going to miss you. although i wasnt there for u when u died. im sorry for what ever happened. mary is kind down in the dumps, but i know she loved you as well as i. dont eat all the carrots up there.

Friday, August 26, 2011

it's so much nonsense , it's on my conscience

i feel like i'm loosing more then i've ever won and i'm ending up with none. I feel like my past is catching up with me and no matter how much i wish i did better in the past i can't change it.. it's starting to effect my future. I'm tired of feeling like i'm stuck, i'm tired of feeling like something is missing in my life, i'm tired of feeling like there's more out there for me then this atmosphere i'm in. I've always known i would "GET OUT' but not on these conditions.. i know your wondering wtf is this women talking about now? i'm planning on moving to tennessee in jan.. i've been complaining for more then half my life i've been in this earth about getting away from "my problems" and now i feel like i can stop complaining and actually make a difference cause i'm a young adult now and i have the abilities to do so now. I just wish the reasons why i want to move wasn't for those reasons. But i realized along time ago my family and my life isn't a nice story book so i just need to remove my self and move on. God put me here for a purpose and i'm going to make the best out of it no matter how hard it gets, all i can do is try. I didn't have a perfect child hood nor a perfect teen life and i'm not letting my adult hood get ruined either, I want so much for my self and maybe sometimes it might be to much, but i only live once and i truly want to make the most out of my life. I want to be someone even if it's not the most important person in the world, i just want to make it... i have to.. i see my family and all there struggles on both sides and i don't want that for my self.. it's starting to get real out here and i feel like i'm starting to break... but I AM A VERY STRONG WOMEN .. i get that from my grandmother . and i honestly think she's the reason i believe in my self.... i'm doing this for her.. i really am, i feel like everyone has always failed her and even though shes not here, she's in my heart and i'm not going to be another disappointment to her. i refuse ..not only do i want to do it for her.. i need to do it for my self .. i have to much potential not to.